So. Remember just the other day I said that I was rethinking my plan of running a marathon in January?
Well, I’m sorry Kelly, I’m going back on what I said. I’m pretty sure I’m not going to go forward with that marathon (at this point in my life).
I know there are several people who say its worth the training, but I just don’t feel like I can mentally and emotionally commit that much time to training. Its a lot of time! I have a long time to be ready to train for a marathon. I just am not even looking forward to running my half marathon that’s coming up in 5 days. Seriously. No excitement.
When I see I have a 8-10 mile run on my schedule, I immediate am not feeling it. I wish I could be super stoked about running a lot. I wish I could make the (mental) commitment to run on average 8 miles a day. I have the time, I just don’t feel like it. And when I don’t feel like it, then chances are, I won’t go through with it either.
And it may just be all this wedding/marriage stuff that’s got me in a tizzy of events. So even in the midst of training, I’ll be getting married. My MIL will be in town for two weeks. And I’ll be moving. It’s a lot to deal with when balancing high mileage runs.
When I’m ready to train for a marathon, I want to put my heart into it. I don’t want to train just so I can say I’m training. I want to make it count.
Also, because, as I said before, I want to get back into to the gym. I want to build my muscles again. I’m not talking about body building. I am talking about losing fat, gaining muscle and at least looking toned. I want to focus a lot on my eating habits and what I’m putting in my body to fuel it. Honestly, I don’t give a damn about what I’m putting in my body when I’m focused on just reaching a certain amount of miles. I use it to give myself an excuse, “OH! I just ran 18 bagillion miles, I can eat 1300 cookies!”
Here’s what I’m thinking. I ix-nay the marathon planning (maybe drop to the half distance…). I get into the gym at least 3 days a week (still running outside after lifting). I eat better and get in a good rhythm of all that. THEN when I’m ready for a marathon, I will have all these good habits on my side to keep me properly fueled and keep me strong.
I do want to run a marathon sometime in the next 2 years. Maybe I will do this marathon in 2014. Maybe. Maybe I’ll change my mind about running a marathon and do it in 2013. Maybe. All in time. And I’m a female, so I can change my mind about changing my mind and it shouldn’t be a surprise. Whatevs. 🙂